3days of cards, fatigue and friends (:

s02 chalet from 26th to 28th.
well, basically summarized as in the title :D
PLUS, crazy stretching while playing Twister and bishi bashi-ing at the arcade. xP
oh, and I'm really getting older =/ haha, can't even sustain till 4am luh.

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Yesterday was Thanksgiving. To the people I love: thank you very much for the sacrifices you've made, for the time you've spent, for everything. <3

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I was utterly shocked when I saw the news about the Mumbai terrorist attacks during the chalet. It was well-planned and flawlessly executed. Stunned.
Whatever happened to the world?

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Everything's so timely. I can never fathom how so many things happen in these 2 days.
Yesterday, as I was packing my room, I found The answer.
And today, haha, just three words: I'm really glad. I don't think anything can ever replace this indescribable feeling that I'm experiencing now (: WOW. "shiok!"

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Today was the first time I woke up early since Alvls ended. Daddy dropped me off at Raffles Place. Oooh, I didn't know singapore river can be so beautiful in the morning! hahaha. so went to the airport to send val off, and then walked around with van. It's lovely catching up with people. (:
After that, met up with pengyi, zhiying, and jiateng. Well, it was supposedly a welfare outing. Haha, but hey zhiying! thanks for organising (: it's been a long time since I last saw her. haha.
ahh, and I really hope he gets well. I didn't know how to react when he told me, it's just so... urgh, painful to see a friend like this. >.< boo, the world's a really really unfair place. =(
Anw, zy, jt and I had loads of fun biking. haha, and just laughing, catching up and standing by the jetty with the wind in our faces. Awesome!
haha, and now I see a half-cooked lobster staring back at me when I look into the mirror. LOL

s02 chalet tmr! :DD

There, right in front of me, lay the answer to everything.
Now, I feel like the greatest fool on Earth. =/
But at the same time, I'm really, really glad,
that I've finally found an answer that truly satisfies me (:

I've always wanted to post this....

WAHAHA. he's so cool!
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Should I go for it?

In sec 3, I thought of going to Princeton to further my studies. LOL. I think I was really naive. hahahaa. Well, at least Harvard has never been one of my dream schools. hahaha. yeah, don't laugh. And in primary 6, apparently I told my mum that I wanted to study in Australia and let them retire there too. But that's something I'm going to aim to achieve (:
I don't know how, and I don't know when, but someday, somehow, this dream will be fulfilled.

A friend once wrote: "Obstacles are frightful things you see when you take your eyes off your goals." :)

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yesterday was Day four of the Pack-my-Room operation. Hahaha. and I'm not done yet. =( I'm done with all of the three tables but I still have 2 boxes, 2 drawers, a cupboard and a wardrobe to pack. wow oh wow. -___-

For the past four days of packing, I've been rummaging through 9 years worth of stuff and memories. Some of the items had real sentimental value that no price could have ever match up to them. I flipped through my primary school stuff (photos, gifts etc.) and I realised it's quite a pity that I've lost contact with a few friends of mine. Supposedly, with technology in our generation, it is easy to find them, but I can't help but wonder if the friendship will be as pure and innocent as those days. I don't even know if they will remember the primary school days.
Yeah, and then there's the toys from the good ol' days. (: Have decided to donate them to the less fortunate, and hopefully they will get a good load of fun out of the toys too.

Sometimes I do wonder if it would have been better if I am given the change to erase my memory and start my entire life all over again. But I realised there's just too much memories that I can't bear to part with. So, I think I'm happy with who I am now (:

val, nora and I went to the NS yesterday! haha. I missed the place so much. We guided this father and daughter pair from down under (: the dad is so cool; i think he has travelled to almost all the countries in the world. And their trip to Singapore was a surprise trip for his daughter. So nice right (: and then we saw 2 flying squirrels glide! and the cubs of the spotted hyenas. *beams*
the night ended with a lovely scoop of Mint chocolate chunk from B&J's ((:
gonna try guiding at RFKW soon!

I'm very very tempted to splurge on clothes. Rawrr... wardrobe makeover!! Okay, I should start looking for a job first.

joy

alevels is finally overr (: and that officially marks the end of 12 years of schooling. No more school uniform from now ( I'm going to dread the days when I have to fret about what to wear to school), no more "spoon-feeding" from teachers, and we are pretty much on our own now. In other words, it's a new beginning! haha.

after Physics yesterday, the Class went to Marina Square for Brunch. KFC breakfast is way nicer than McD! :D and then to Marina Barrage then back to City Link for Gelare. In the end, the guys went to pool, but I didn't bring a shirt to change into! >.< so I ended up reading "The audacity of hope" at GV ((: By then, my legs felt like jelly and my eyes were half opened. Bummed around MS till 6pm before heading down to Clarke quay to club with my dad. HAHAH. no la... kidding. Had dinner at Central with my dad and then home sweet home. (:

I was super shagged yesterday. So, people, if I was in a funk and was talking nonsense, sorry. =X

oh! and I hate Stomp, and I hate it when some Singaporeans start shoving when they can't get into the train. Why can't they just wait for the next one! It's only a difference of 3 minutes! Plus you get more fresh air on the next train and you don't have to press your face against the glass door -____- But I think this happens in a lot of developed countries. People should just relax, slow down their pace, and enjoy everything around them. The sound, the sight, the smell (O.o)... everything.

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I packed my room for the entire day and I'm not even halfway through! >.< rawrr. Only managed one out of three tables, a shelf and a drawer. Haven't really cleared my room since I moved here 9 years ago. hahaha, so there's like 9 years worth of dust in some places. Urgh.

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AND! we're going N.S. tmr! :D super happy. hahaha hope it doesn't rain! (: Ah, I miss the rainforest and the animals :)

This is what I call excessive blogging everyday (:
It feels like holiday already.
I survived the past few days with this quote from huixian (haha, if you are reading this, thank you very very much! :)) "If you can study for the 3 days in exchange for a better grade, why not?"
O yes, though I didn't do like a million gazillion MCQs, at least I managed to refuse the temptation to tune in to Animal Planet. It was def. harder than I thought though. =X

Anyway, dear sis is back from KYUUSHUU! (trying to imitate her =X)
She got me loads of foodd, and 2 cans of Japanese Beer! HAHA totally stunned :P and then there's this kawaii milk bottle, and biscuits, and gum, and necklace... *loves*
Studied at T3 coffee bean today (: adores that place.
And then dad, mum and I did a really stoopid thing. We wrote "Kiyneug-San" on a piece of paper and stuck it on the glass panel separating the arrival hall and the place where you collect your luggages. hahaha. x)

okay, now I'm starting to dread the day when results are released. =(
but anyway, still going to partyy like there's no tomorrow (:

11 more hours!

1001 things

1 of the 1001 things I hope to do before I die is to achieve something with the Best friend. haha! I don't know... maybe scale a mountain in the Himalayas, watch the penguins in Antarctica or lie under the starry sky in the savannas with Mt. Kilimanjaro in the background. Nah kidding. hahahah. But if it's possible, why not? (:

and then I want to bring my mum and dad to the Alps the moment I get my 12th salary. That means it's time to scrimp and save up! :D

"There can be miracles, when you believe Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill Who knows what miracles you can achieve When you believe, somehow you will You will when you believe"

and as Mr. Obama's "Yes, we can" echoes in my mind, I know I can too. I know I just need to keep believing; I know I need to keep that faith; I know I've got to trust.

hahaha, I don't know how I kept all these thoughts away for the past few weeks/ months.

confronting fears

I've been thinking recently; about what I've done these 2 years; about some of the decisions I've made; about some people who have always made a difference to my life...

... and I conclude I haven't been exactly a good friend.
but just know that I will always be there when you guys need me yeah. (:

... and I'm really glad that my family is always there for me. Nonsensical fun, silly comments... I wouldn't have survived these few days without them. <3

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I'm sorry that things turned out this way.
The things I've wrote? I really mean them.
But I'm worn out. I'm worn out from waiting too long.
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On a lighter note, check out Miriam Makeba's "the click song" (:
It's really nice. And she was a wonderful singer. rip.
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It's a beautiful day. Happy birthday Mum! ((:

I like to move it move it..

Promises made, not meant to be broken from a long time ago.
Oh, so many words still unspoken, tell me how I was to know.

Madagascar: Escape 2 Africa is really hilarious. If not for the constant reminder that I had to answer nature's call, I would have laughed my head off.
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I guess I'm a bad friend too.
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Sometimes I wonder why do I even bother.

Anyway! one final paper. It's like looking forward to milo after a race. LOL

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If there is anyone out there who still doubts that A levels is a place where all things are possible;
who still wonders if the dream of scoring As is still alive today;
who still questions the power of our minds and capability;
think again.

Doubt there will be many people who will get this straightaway -_-

After Econs yesterday, I realised that Cambridge is capable of anything. >.< And after case study today, I'm even more convinced. It wasn't that tough today, but didn't have enough time to finish. again. =( Most of the papers I took this year were errm, weird... physics had like tons of graphs; what I expected to come out did not come out; Chem required us to draw a lot. Okay, maybe it's just me, maybe I didn't prepare well enough, maybe some smart asses found it too simple to be an A level paper, but whatever, it's over; What's done is done. (:

I'm still going to hope that somehow, I can secure at least 2As. =/ Rawrr.
I'm still going to believe that I can do it. Cause I've survived more than half of my papers already!!!

Insomnia last week was horrible. Averaged 4 hours per night. I've never had problems sleeping; I usually fall asleep instantly... I hate the A levels.

On a lighter note, 2 more MCQs to go!! ((:
6 more days to total liberation! :DD
Hang in there PCME peeps. to the rest who have exams till 25th, Jiayou jiayou!
I can go sell my "fuel" after the 18th -___-

Oh yeah, Mr Barack Obama rocks :)