Will be back soon (:
54 days later.

melancholy

Talk about fear.
Things were going downhill today until a friend reminded me that everything will be over soon. (:
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The other day, I was on the bus talking to CY. She mentioned that we only had 7 more days of school. Today, it's down to 5.
I'm certain I'm going to have mixed feelings about this. Though I do not have to worry about some things that WILL inevitably happen throughout the course of the day, I will miss being in my class; I will miss school life; I will miss practically everything.
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I need to stop thinking about such stuff and concentrate.
*stares at the admission criteria*
Focus, focus, focus. Keep believing!

Seven

I would rather you slap me in the face than keep the thoughts to yourself.

International Day of Peace

I can only stare at the news while helplessness surged inside me.
So much for a day of international peace.

"The future of mankind will only be tolerable when our course, in human affairs as in all other matters, is based upon justice and law rather than the threat of naked power as has been true so far."
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study hard! and keep the dream alive ((:
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I always thought the school is most beautiful at dusk.

So many questions

Forget those grades, learn from the mistakes and move on with life.

It's so surreal, so whimsical.

This is surprisingly interesting! (:
Optimism and confidence.

it's you

"We’re not gonna break ‘cause we both still believe
We know what we’ve got and we’ve got what we need alright
We’re doing something right"

It sounds really nice when they sing that out (:

Don't ever feel tired of trying. You'll never know when you'll hit the jackpot. Ha, perhaps this is the reason why so many people get addicted to gambling; they never give up trying. OKAY -___-

I don't know what's best for you.

a dismal day.

Relive those days; relive those dreams...

As I trudged grudgingly behind them, I thought of why things have turned out this way but then my mind drifted off to a blank sheet of paper momentarily before turning back to reality.
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I hope the weekend can cheer me up!


Like an eagle in the sky
So free, in glee.

One day.

One day you will realize how much this means to me.

And maybe on that very fine day, I will realize how stupid I have been.

Or maybe it's just another misunderstanding.

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It's tough. During this time of the year, it's good to invest in a pair of earplugs or even better, ear muffs. I should focus and keep believing, and stop being a pathetic little soul.

Don't give up on yourself even if the whole world seem to have given up on you. (:

I thought Mid-Autumn festival is on Monday! Argh, so screwed up.
Anyhow, met my twinn to hang around at Suntec. The Lego warehouse sale was disappointing! She couldn't get anything she wanted, plus, the area was so small! So we went for lunch at Just Noodles. It's this place with affordable food and most importantly, free flow of drinks and ice cream. (: Cai Yun should totally lunch at this place.
We went to DC and I contemplated on whether I should buy a top but decided against it since I'm going to revamp my wardrobe anyway. Change style! :D But, I'm still going to save up and get a nice black polo top (:
Settled at Gloria Jean's after walking around for 2hours and I got a large cup of mocha for only $5.60! (: ... and tried to study econs. haha.

gickr.com

hahaha this is so cool.

Post Prelims.

The weather was fine, the company was wonderful...
an unforgettable night. (:
Really sorry for underestimating the time from vivo to WCP. =X
Anyhow, happy mid-autumn festival! :D

Lanterns (:

I was in JP for an hour, at home doing scrapbook for 3 hours, on the train for an hour plus, at the airport for half an hour, at vivo for an hour, and at west coast park for 2hours.
I think I spent more than $5 on travelling. Thank goodness for student fare.
And I blew my sms limit again.

But I'm happy.
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It was pouring when I woke up today.
Went to the Zoo, did our tests and rushed over to PS to meet the team.
Ahh... yeah, YC flying off to UK to study. Bon Voyage! (:
And the seniors looked so stressed out over uni.
Omg, one more year. haha.
Meanwhile, I shall look forward to after A's.
65 more days.

I miss them.
haha yeah, I'm serious.
I miss those days.

Gotta think about it seriously these few days.
And then it's full mugging mode.

I've used too much of my brain cells today.
Goodnight.

a day in my life.

My arms (and ass) are aching now because I did not warm up properly -_- but it was 2 great hours of badminton today anyway (: I bet I will ache even more tomorrow. =X

Andrea and Nora bummed around at my house in the afternoon and we watched Mr. Woodcock. Haha. Think both of them caught the flu bug and were sneezing away... lol, so we decided to head down to JP for dinner. We went to the arcade after dinner and LOL omg, we were really loud when we played bishi bashi, and if it wasn't for the already high noise level at the arcade, I think you would have heard us from level 2. Not to mention, we were really violent too. haha, I wonder why that machine never spoils. It was fun though, laughing and just going crazy (:

Ahh... I'm still at page 9 of my CA notes. zzzz...

提燈籠 tomorrow! :DD Please don't rainn...

Let's have a little party (:

a brand new day...

Ah, I feel so liberated. Haven't felt so good for ages.
Prelims are finally over, and we can all take a well-deserved break. (:
The girls went to marina square for lunch today (ah, finally, not plaza sing xP), and haha had a filling lunch. Then we bummed around the area, which included walking from one end of Suntec to the other end. Yeah, at least we exercised. -_- but now my ankle and knee hurts.

I can't wait till the end of A's. (: 68 more days to freedom.

Anyway, I think I'm meeting val, andrea and nora tml to lag around, and then friday will be spent with the class/ or the girls at some park, celebrating mid-autumn festival (:
I hope it doesn't rain.

There's training/ test on saturday before meeting the pingpongers for lunch (:

and then I think gym/swim on Sunday before school starts again on Monday.
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And I constantly berate myself for being such a self-delusionist. I know believing will definitely have more benefits than deluding myself. But I just can't.
I doubt you will ever know how much I envy you.

Pathetic little whimpering dog that just refuses to barge, just let go and move on.


I want to sleepppp.. zzz

Venturing into another arena

Don't bother reading unless you are really really bored.

Got up early (for the first time in this holiday, wow.) and went for training. Supposed meeting time was 845am but I was lazy so had my dad fetch me to the Zoo, and I reached at 8am. ._. Failed to study for that 45 mins. I was really amazed by this army of worker ants carrying this thingy- which I presumed it was a dead bug- from under the table to this drain cover half a metre away. yeah I know, it's gross facts to some people, but anyway, I'm okay with them. Though they can be irritating at times too.

Once, I got really irritated by them when they conquered my table. Stupid me, I left my raisins on my table -_- only to discover the next day that ants were all over the table.
That led to a week long battle with the ants in my room. I got really pissed off, since I was studying for my prelims, whenever I see like 3 or 4 ants scurrying across the wall. So I laid poison pellets at a corner of the room and I think most of them decided to migrate to better places. XP

Back to the ants. When the Egyptians built the pyramids, they used an ingenious techinique to transport an object from one place to another. They placed rollers at the bottom of an object, pushed it forward, and replace the rollers from the back of the object to the front... (something along those lines). These ants, they were like the rollers, there were a few who would carry the dead thing for a few centimeters, and then the last few will scramble to the front and wait for their turn to carry the object. So, they carried that thingy till they reached the drain cover. (:

Laudable hardwork put in by the ants. Haha I bet if they were given the intelligence of humans and apes, probably they will rule the world by now (and maybe the universe), given that success is 99% hardwork and 1% intelligence.

Well, yeah, my experience with ants early this morning. xP

Anyway, training was a great experience. I was alone this time round, so hung around the CAs that I know. It was like... stepping out of my comfort zone. Not going to elaborate much lest my blog gets discovered, somehow. x)

Can't believe it, this phase of my life is coming to an end already. It has been 3 whole years (or 6 years?). Like this satisfied little (abandoned) puppy that had its fill, but just refuses to leave the stranger who gave it a new lease of life. I don't know, loyalty? urgh, whatever, just move on girl. ...Unless the stranger doesn't mind it being a nuisance.

At least I'm not being emo. I haven't been emo for a long time (yay), just, bottled up.
But I'm no fizzy drink so it's okay haha -__-
Humans are born with survival instincts. I can survive (:

MIA till after prelims. err, HC, VJ, RJ, NJ peeps, gdluck x)

I think I can put my mind at ease

(:

I stuck this huge post-it on the wall right in front of my study table this morning. Hopefully, this new addition to the collection of post-its-on-the-wall works.

Darn it, I really need to just think about Schrodinger, 2,4-dinitrophenylhydrazine and what not, for err, 5 days. Then it will be a short break before I pick up my notes again.

Didn't do much today cuz' I was in this super lazy mood. Probably won't do much tml too...

Anyway, there's training for CA tml (:
I think I lived in the jungle in my previous life. I always feel gay happy staring at the towering trees and the reservoir while taking a ride down the winding road to the Zoo. HAHA.

I want to get off this ferry.

I've been thinking about it for the past few days. And I think I won't be able to take VetMed in Uni., unless money falls from the sky. haha, I do not even have to think about Med now coz' my grades aren't going to bring me anywhere near that. Yeah, so there are a few alternatives, of which some are really really impractical, like archeological studies. Hahaha.
Nah, I've got something else in mind, hopefully my grades can make it. >.<

anyway... FOCUS. urgh... keep those eyes off the prospectus please.

It's Tuesday today. I should have recharged enough by now... one more week to the end of prelims! yeah! and then it's recharge and full mugger mode again. hahah. what a life.

WALL-E is super adorable! :D hahaha. omg, those eyes of his.

Goodnight world.